The fact that I just turned down a relationship full of love lets me know that I took a step in the right direction. I don't know where that direction is headed, but hopefully along the way I gain trust, independence and the ability to get my priorities back in order.

I finally feel like I'm thinking straight. I know I want to be alone right now. I WANT TO BE ALONE. Who says that? I must be fucked. I honestly and sincerely believe I need to work on myself. I think there's a reason I've been broken up with three times in my life, and never broken up with someone. I now think I know the reason and am set out to change it. 

I just want to spend time with my friends, family and by myself. 

People keep saying I'm strong, but they have no idea how hard it is.