My biggest pet peeves:
1) PDA in front of friends. It's gross and no one wants to see that. If I wanted to feel uncomfortable I would go sleep in a bath tub full of bricks.
2) Couples saying I love you after a month or two. I did that when I was 18. Grow up. You barley know them.
3) Love at first sight. No explanation.

I'm so bitter sometimes. 
For my specialized reporting class I have been assigned to read a book by a Canadian Journalist.
I am reading the book Runaway Devil. I'm only 20 pages into it but it's so good. It's about a 12 year old girl from Vancouver who is dating some 23 year old, and ends up killing her parents and her little brother. I don't know why or what happened, because like I said I've only read 20 pages. But I've been looking at other books that are similar to this and have put together a list of books I must read:

1. Such Good Boys
2. Lethal Marriage
3. Fiend: The Shocking True Story of Americas Youngest Serial Killer
4. Beyond Cruel
5. Heartless: The True Story of Neil Entwistle...
6. Evil Beside Her
7. By Their Fathers Hand
8. Depraved
Still have not seen Scott Pilgrim vs. the world. This makes me sad.

What is my life

Last time you consumed alcohol?

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
In the shower.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Painting my nails.

How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Josh! Best dude! ♥

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Only everyday.

Do you like your life as of now?
I always like my life.

Last thing you purchased?
Hmmm.....McDonalds hashbrowns.

Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
I am doing this survey while I wait for my class to begin again. I like my house, and that's how I feel about that.

Three words to explain why you last threw up?
Flu or something.

Where did your last hug take place?
My house.

Ever kissed someone who smokes?

Did you have a good birthday last year?
I always have a good birthday.

Are you tired right now?

Have you ever been called a tease?
Many times.

Be honest, who were you texting a while ago?
The only person I've texted today is Kristyn.

This time last year did you like anyone?

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
No one has feelings.

Who was the first person you talked to today?

How late did you stay up last night?
Oh god, 3:30.

Could you go a month without cursing?
No way.

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?

When's the last time you talked to the opposite sex on the phone?
Yesterday when my dad called me.

Do you know how to change a diaper?

Do you keep a planner?
I would die without one.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Hit snooze on my crackberry.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing before?

What would you name your future daughter?
No idea. Hopefully something from a Shakespeare play. I'm lame like that. 

Have you kissed someone whose name started with a J or K?
Yes and Yes.

You kissed someone today didn't you?

Would you have sex with the 20th person on your contacts?
Bahahah. If I wanted to, I would have made it happen two months ago.

The last time you kissed someone, were your arms around their neck?
Don't remember.

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
Sometimes, mostly.
my personality:

* i’m loud.
* i’m obnoxious.
* i’m sarcastic.
* i’m cocky.
* i cry easily.
* i have a bad temper.
* for the most part i don’t like people.
* i’m easy to get along with.
* i have more enemies than friends.
* i’ve smoked but i don’t smoke.
* i’ve smoked weed once when drunk.
* i drink coffee.
* i clean my room daily.

my appearance:

* i wear makeup.
* i wear a piece of jewelry at all times.

* i wear contacts.
* i wear glasses.
* i have braces.
* i change my hair colour often
* i straighten my hair often
* i have a piercing
* i have small feet


* i’m in a relationship now.
* i’m single.
* i’m crushin’.
* i’m in love.
* i’m always scared of being hurt.
* an ex has physically abused me at least once.
* i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
* i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.
* i believe in love at first sight.
* i believe lust is more important than love.


* i have a best friend.
* i have at least ten friends.

* i’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
* i’ve beaten up a friend.
* i’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
* i can trust at least five people with my life.


* i’ve been on a plane.
* someone close to me has died.
* i’ve taken a taxi.
* i’ve taken a city bus.
* i’ve taken a school bus.

* i’ve gone bungee jumping.
* i’ve made a speech.
* i’ve been in some sort of club.
* i’ve won an award.

* i’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
* i’ve been in a physical fight


* i listen to r&b.
* i listen to country.
* i listen to pop.
* i listen to techno.
* i listen to rock.

* i’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it.
* i hate the radio.
* i download music.
* i buy cd’s.


* i spend at least six hours a day watching television.
* i watch soap operas daily.
* i’m in love with days of our lives.
* i’ve seen and liked the o.c.
* i’ve seen and liked one tree hill.
* i’ve seen and like americas next top model.
* i’ve seen and like popular.
* i’ve seen and like 24.
* i’ve seen and liked csi.
* i’ve seen and like everwood.

family life:

* i get along with both of my parents.
* my biological parents are still together.
* i have at least one sister.
* i have at least one step brother/sister.
* i have at least one half brother/sister.
* i’ve been kicked out of the house.
* i’ve ran away from my home.
* i’ve sworn at my parents.
* i’ve made my parents cry.
* i’ve lied to my parents.
* i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
* i’ve lied to my parents about what i’m doing.
* i’ve lied to my parents so i’d be allowed out.

* i’ve walked out when i’ve been grounded.


* i’ve been brown.
* i’ve cut my hair in the past year.
* i’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
* i’ve been blonde.
* i’ve had black.
* i’ve been red.
* i’ve been light brown.
* i’ve been medium brown.
* i’ve been blue/green.
* i’ve gotten my hair thinned.
* i use conditioner.
* i’ve used silk therapy.

* i’ve used hot oil treatments.
* i’ve curled my hair.
* i’ve straightened my hair.
* i’ve ironed my hair.
* i’ve braided my hair.


* i’ve yelled at a teacher.
* i’ve been suspended.
* i’ve had an in-school suspension.
* i’ve been sent to the principals office.
* i’ve walked out of class.
* i’ve skipped an entire day of school.

* i’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
* i’ve failed a test.
* i’ve cheated on a test.
* i’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.

* i’ve failed art.
* i’ve failed p.e.
* i’ve failed math.
* i’ve failed science.
* i’ve failed another class.
* a teacher has called my parents
This makes me wonder who stole my pumpkin from my party, and what they did with it. 

(240): Ummm so I just found the baby pumpkin that was on my porch last night in Village Pizza this morning on their counter. The cashier said some drunk girl came in and told him it was a present. 

Luv Halloween TFLN 

(608): Level of drunkenness: just now when I sat down on the toilet, I had to double check to make sure I wasn't sitting on somebody's lap.

(484): I'll be heading downtown with donuts and a lawn chair at 9am to go Halloween Walk o' Shame spotting.

(402): I'm eating mac and cheese for dinner that way when I puke later it'll be festive halloween orange.



Cute dates with cute boys are da best.
And by 'dates' i mean date, and by 'boys' i mean just one boy.
I was reading an article from the toronto star, it was a review of paranormal activity 2, and the writer was comparing the demon to Casper. Basically it was mocking the movie. In it, he writes:

"Also, if you’re going to scratch something into a door, it should say something. Not just gibberish like you do in the movie, but something scary. Like “Go to hell!” or “Vote Rob Ford!”"

Probably the best thing I've read in a newspaper. I like journalists with a sense of humor. 

Campfire bodyspray

Would you fall apart if the last person you kissed dropped from your life?
Not at all.

Your insanely drunk stumbling through the streets, slurring songs, who are you with?
Helga most likely. But possibly Clayton, Connor, Josh or Kristyn.

Do you say sorry first?
Usually, yes.

Do you remember when you first kissed the last person you kissed?
The only time? Yes.

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
My mommy. Oh and Josh and Connor. Luv best friends.

Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
Yes. Fuck them and their lies.

Are you happy?
YES. Always.

What do you hear right now?
TV and Helga.

Out of the following, what do you feel right now, angry/sad/happy/annoyed?

Is there anyone you couldn't live without?

How's your best friend?
They're all good.

You're thinking about someone, aren't you?

When's the next time you'll see your best friend?

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
My brothers, my dad, my nephew, Clayton, Connor, Josh.

Name one food you refuse to eat?

Are you any good at math?
Yes, actually.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
How is it 1?

Is your hair longer than your shoulders?

Does anyone call you babe or baby?

What are you currently wearing?
Boxers and a wife beater. IF I WERE A BOYYY.

Morning or night person?
Neither. More like mid day person.

What is your mood?

Do you usually fall asleep before 11?

Do you wish at 11:11?

Do you believe in love?

Are you a lover or a fighter?
Fuck bitches, get moneyz.

Do you sing in the shower?
Nah. If I had a shower radio I would.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My dad.

Are you single?

How late did you stay up last night and why?
Til 3, I couldn't sleep.

If your ex said they hated you, you say?

Do you believe in this saying: What goes around comes around?

Who woke you up this morning?
The fact it was 1.

Did you enjoy your summer?

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?

Look to the right, what do you see?

When was the last time you smiled?

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

Who do you miss?

Have you ever felt replaced?

Do you trust your bestfriend with your life?

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
We don't talk, but we're good now.

If you were 12 and you could see yourself now, would you be disappointed?

Are you in love?

Can you go a month without swearing?

How many TRUE friends do you have?
A bunch.

Who was your first text this morning?

Do you have any text messages that you don’t want other people reading?

Could you forgive someone who slept with your boyfriend/girlfriend?

I bet you miss someone, don’t you?

How important is a sense of humor in a significant other?
Extremely important.

Last thing you laughed really, really hard about?
Helga's tweets.

Did the last person you kissed have a tattoo?

Has anyone ever spelt your name wrong?
Chantelle, Chantal, Shantelle...

Think back to the beginning of 2009, were you dating the person your dating now

Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?

What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
I don't like anyone.

Say you were given a pregnancy test right now. would you pass? it would come out negative?

What are your plans for your next birthday?
Who knows.

What did you do today?
Watched scary movie with Helga, did homework, went to class, shopped, went to the movies, watched another scary movie.

You take fifteen shots of vodka, what are you doing?
Throwing up on someone and then passing out on the bathroom floor.

What’s on your schedule for tomorrow?
CLASS ALL DAY. And then pumpkin carving with the roommates.

Did anything bad happen to you in September?

Have you had your birthday yet this year?
Nope ): Late birthdayy.

Are promises important to you?

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
Yesterday, my dad.

Are you friends with people in lower grades?
I'm not in grade school.

Where would I find you this upcoming Thursday?
Class or at home.

Ever felt like you’re not good enough?

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
One of my best friends.

What are you thinking of doing right now?

Is there anything stressing you out currently?

Do you find smoking unattractive?
I don't care.
I am not excited at all for next semester. I don't have a day off, which I decided to do because having  more than 1 or 2 classes a day kills me so hard. So here is my deadly schedule:

Monday: Popular Music 4:20-7
Tuesday: Advanced Broadcasting 9-10:45 and 11:45-2:25
Wednesday: Media Writing 9:55-11:40 and Statistics 12:40-4:15
Thursday: Media Writing 9-11:40 and Advanced Newspaper 12:40-3:20
Friday: Advanced Newspaper: 9:55-12:35
Life should be like the movies where you wake up one day and realize the person you love has been there all along. Then you live happily ever after. jklol.

I spent way too much money today. I bought three shirts, two pairs of shorts, two pieces of lingerie, tights, beer, glue, movies, nailpolish and veggie rice. I also watched Case 39 with Helga, Kristyn, Josh and Amanda tonight, it was freaky, but good. 

I love Bedouin Soundclash. Mainly the lead singer.

I'm waking up early to go the gym tomorrow. Tomorrow and Friday during the day are going to be so chill.
I continuously give up nice guys to be alone. I will never understand my decisions.
I'm glad I'm not the type of person who falls in love easily. Although, sometimes I wish I did.

I'm eating the most delicious pasta right now. Then I'm going to write a mid term, work on homework and finish my night off with Jackass 3D. I just realized I have a cut on the inside of my mouth ): Sad.
I also have to buy tickets for the Guelph-Humber Gala. I'm going with my friend Josh, probably the coolest date.
I'm learning to be happy alone. I'm learning to put myself first. I'm learning that I don't need a boy to be happy. I should have done this along time ago, maybe then I wouldn't have fucked up every relationship I've ever been in. 
It sounds so good, but at the same time I'm becoming very bitter and starting to not give a fuck about anyone else. And that really, really sucks. Besides my family, there are only about 10 people I care about at all. I honestly don't think I'll ever be happy with anyone, I just can't picture myself with someone else. I don't want anyone to get close to me, fuck up my happiness and break my heart again. I don't need that. I can't deal with the emotions of someone else. Every time I become close to someone even in the slightest, I immediately push them away. I tell everyone straight, I don't want a relationship, I don't want a boyfriend, I want to be alone. Why don't people listen to me? Don't waste your time.

School is so much work, and so much stress this year, but I'm getting through.
I love my elective, for the first time. It's all about health and living a healthy lifestyle. I'm learning a lot about how to eat right and what vitamins to take for my vegan lifestyle. Multivitamins, calcium pills and B12. Possibly iron soon, I guess we will see what I need. Ever since I started taking vitamins I've been feeling a lot better. My law class is really hard to understand, considering I've never taken a law class or been interested in law, but my proff makes it interesting and I never have trouble paying attention. My web design proff is a babe (and single) I checked ;). I'm making a wicked website, and am pretty stoked on that. I like my TV broadcasting class a lot, but it is sososos much work. I also love my specialized reporting class, but it is also so stressful. I just wrote an article on the Williams prices increasing and it's being published in the Radix (GH newspaper) soon. Pretty excited. I finally realized how hard it is to get an interview with someone though, ugh.
I am so into you.


Luv ma bro

i just did something so stupid

i had to come on fb to tell someone

let a sista know
im so high i was in the kitchen hitting the light swithches trying to turn off the light in the living room
i did it for like 23 seconds
23 seconds? not like 20 seconds, or 30 seconds, but 23 seconds?

Sweet chili heat Doritos remind me of you, ugh. 
The fact that lady gaga wore a dress made out of dead cow is the most disgusting thing I have heard and I will never respect her. Like, are you fucked?
Life is good. Frosh was awesome. I love my house and roommates. School is getting rough. I go to the movies too much. I just spent a shit load of money on unnecessary stuff. I got internet and cable in my room today, probably never leaving. I need a change.
I want red hair.
I want a bike.
I want my medusa pierced.
I want new tattoos. 
I want my own iron.
I want asparagus and corn on the cob.
Holy fuck on so many levels. What a way to begin the school year. Fuck. My life is so dramatic sometimes. Well anyway, I am all moved in to my new house in Etobicoke with 2 of my best friends. I can't wait, this is going to be a good year.
The worst part is that you think I don't care about you. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you that I love you back. I'm sorry that you are willing to give me another chance, a chance I don't want.

I'm terrified

I went to a party and kissed my gay friend Matt. Worst decision of my life. I love Matt, but I didn't realize how big of a deal it would be. I looked at it like I was kissing a girlfriend. Other girls with boyfriends kiss Matt, so I figured it was okay. It definitley was not. I no longer have a boyfriend. What a great end to my summer.
I used to be such a jealous girl, now I just don't give a fuck. I'm not going to think and worry about something pointless. If I have a reason to be jealous, I'll find out. I hate when people over think things.
Ughhh ehhehqwrhqwhhr  I don't feel like myself lately.
:( :S

I want this week to be over. I want it to be Friday so I can go to Tacky Prom. I want it to be Saturday so I can go party at Garths with my best friends. I want to get tattooed, dye my hair and get my medusa pierced. I can't wait until a week from now when I can move all my shit into my new house. Living with two of my best friends is going to be the best thing ever. Next Friday is three of my best friends birthday party. One of them is up and visiting from Winnipeg with her baby. The day after is my friend Amandas birthday, she's moving back from Montreal for school. Ugh, I need to get out of Barrie so bad.
Falling for you feels so good.
There's no reason to rush this, I want you for as long as possible. 
I miss you every time you leave, and think about you every night before bed.
I like you a whole bunch.

Bold what applies to you.

Things I Love:

1. Cats

2. Chai Tea.

3. Green Tea.

4. Texting.

5. Movies.

6. Music.

7. Rockband.

8. TV or DVD.

9. No School.

10. Recycling.

11. Snow.
12. Reading.

13. Writing.

14. Poetry.

15. Novels.

16. Singing in the car.

17. Sun Chips.

18. Hiking.

19. Biking.

20. Water.

21. iPod.

22. Surveys.

23. Facebook.

24. Friends.

25. Family.

Things I Hate:

1. Spiders.

2. Jerks.

3. Conceited people.

4. People in general.

5. Not being listened to.

6. People who abuse animals.

7. Cleaning.

8. Waking Up.

9. Drugs.

10. Smoking.

11. Cancer.

12. Hot weather.

13. My dad.

14. Worrying too much.

15. Anxiety.

16. Awful teachers/professors.

17. School.

18. Math.

19. Being too hot.

20. Heels.

21. Glee.

22. Lady Gaga.

23. Feet.

24. Runny noses.

25. Being sick.

Movies I Love:

1. V For Vendetta.

2. Star Trek.

3. Lord of the Rings.

4. Harry Potter.

5. Sleeping Beauty.

6. Boondock Saints.

7. New Moon.

8. Alice in Wonderland.

9. The Dark Knight.

10. Juno.

11. Sweeney Todd.

12. Walk The Line.

13. Across the Universe.

14. Four Brothers.

15. Eternal Sunshine.

16. Dead Poets Society.

17. Transformers.

19. Moulin Rouge.

20. Back To The Future.

21. Aladdin.

22. Saving Private Ryan.

23. Edward Scissorhands.

24. Mary Poppins.

25. Queen of the Damned.

Good Looking Famous Males:

1. Johnny Depp.

2. Robert Pattinson.

3. Taylor Lautner.

4. Ryan Reynolds.

5. Jared Leto.

6. Alexander Skarsgard.

7. Josh Holloway.

8. Hugh Jackman.

9. Ed Westwick.

10. Chace Crawford.

11. Chris Pine.

12. Jim Sturgess.

13. Zachary Quinto.

14. Ewan McGregor.

15. Patrick Dempsey.

16. Brandon Flowers.

17. David Cook.

18. Chris Daughtry.

19. Jake Gyllenhaal.

20. John Krasinski.

21. Christian Bale.

22. Edward Norton.

23. Justin Timberlake.

24. Ryan Gosling.

25. Ben Barnes.

26. Joe Jonas

27. Kevin Jonas.

28. Nick Jonas.

29. Danny Jones.

30. Dougie Poynter.

31. Tom Fletcher.

32. Harry Judd.

33. Logan Lerman.

34. Alex Pettyfer.

35. Aaron Johnson.

36. Nick Hoult.

37. Luke Pasqualino.

Bands/Singers I LIKE:

1. The Beatles.

2. Muse.

3. The Killers.

4. The Fray.

5. Taylor Swift.

6. Katy Perry.

7. Eyes Set To Kill.

8. Adam Lambert.

9. Demi Lovato.

10. Colbie Caillat.

11. Paramore.

12. Ingrid Michaelson.

13. Taking Back Sunday.

14. 30 Seconds To Mars.

15. Leona Lewis.

16. The Hives.

17. John Lennon.

18. Panic! At The Disco.

19. Miley Cyrus.

20. Mute Math.

21. Alesana.

22. Blessthefall.

23. Pete Yorn.

24. Cobra Starship.

25. Modest Mouse.

26. Fall Out Boy.

27. Mcfly.

28. Rascal Flatts.

29. Josh Turner.

30. George Strait.

31. Kenny Chesney.

32. Usher.

33. All-American Rejects.

34. Kaiser Chiefs.

Ryan Sexton

can you answer fifty-one questions about one person?
I will do my best.

what's their name?
Ryan Sexton.

does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
It is highly possible.

do you get along with this person all of the time?

how old is this person?

has she ever cooked for you?
Oh god. Tempeh wings ♥

is this person older than you?
;) Nope.

have you ever kissed this person?
Multiple times.

are you related to this person?
Nah b.

are you really close to her/him?
Emotionally? Yes. Physically? Unfortunately not.

Ry guy Sexty

do they have a nickname for you?

how many times do you talk to this person during a week?
About 4 facebook messages a day, but actually talk? I see him about once a week.

do you think they will repost this?

could you live with this person?
One day.

why is this person your number one?
Well, he is a wicked boyfriend.

how long have you known this person?
4 months.

have you ever been to the mall with this person?
Sure thing.

have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
(: Yup.

if you ever moved away would you miss this person?

have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
Stupid? Yes. Illegal? Yes.

do you know everything about this person?
Not everything. I'm working on it.

would you date this person’s siblings?

have you ever made something with this person?
Love ;) hahahahah. Dumbest question.

have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
Decew falls.

is your number one on drugs?

have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
Plenty of times.

does this person wear your clothes?

if it was ''freaky friday'' would you switch bodies with this person?
No thanks.

have you ever heard this person sing?

do you and this person have a saying?
I guess I just did it just for you ♥

do you know this persons facebook password?
Nope. I would prefer not to.

have you and this person gone clubbing?
lawl, we went out with his sister and friends once.

do you know how to make this person feel happy?
I try (:

do you and this person talk alot?

do you like this person?
So much.

has this person yelled at you?
Yeah :(

have you and this person got into a fist fight?
He only beats me when I get out of line.

do you want to go out with this person?

do you want to be friends with them forever?
I can't wait to go back to school. Mainly because of these few reasons:
- Sleeping in everyday (except Wednesdays)
- Kristyn Klamut
- Being closer to my boy and being able to see him more than a few hours a week
- Clayton Dunnington and Connor Marchen
- Living with two of my best friends
- Josh Swan
- Living in Toronto; awesome shows, dance cave, eaton center, vegan restaurants and always having something to do
- Going to school for something I actually enjoy
- Having my own house and getting to decorate it
I hug you goodbye like it's nothing, when all I ever want is to hold on forever

Back to school wants; American apparel high socks, forever 21 dress, Roots sweats, AA sweater, and hoodie.

This is my 1000th post and it is to describe how happy I am about everything. 
I love my job so much. This week I am working with a boy who has autism, and he is awesome. I love being his camp leader. Tomorrow we're going to Tyndale park to swim at the beach, go canoeing and things like that, Thursday we're going to Georgian College to go rock climbing, and Friday we're going tree top trekking at Horseshoe Valley. Which will bring me to the weekend, it is Liams birthday and I am going to Niagara for the Hardcore Olympics and to see a cute boy. Ryan Sexton is the best thing to happen to me. He is amazing and makes me super happy. I couldn't be any happier right now.
Is it too soon?

I cry everytime I see this

I just had the best few days with the cutest guy I know. It consisted of a wedding, Canada's wonderland, vegan restaurants, swimming, thai food and cuddling. By far the happiest I could get. I am so stoked on this summer.

I have the worlds biggest crush on you