I just read a bunch of my first blog entries ever and I found this thing I wrote a few years ago for a class.

You know that feeling you get when you anticipate your being followed?
Or even when you apprehend your being followed;
Maybe not followed, but just watched,
Or possibly Observed?
Like your some sort of an experiment, just waiting to besmirch.
As if someone actually takes an interest in your life.
Like someone else cares what you do when you think no ones around.
But in reality everyones around.
Everyone is watching, waiting, judging.
Watching everything you do.
Waiting for your next move.
Judging everything you do and say.
Its like everything you do is supposed to happen.
There are no mistakes, no coincidences.
Your decisons are made,
before you even know you have decisions to make.
Like the world is a complete and flawed lie.
There really is no one to trust.
Everyone is involved in this massive deception.
Its not like your self centered.
Just paranoid.
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But what if this is just you becoming obsessed ?
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But then again, what if thats what they want you to think?

I also found this conversation that made me sad. I miss my old friends a lot.

CHANTEL LEANNA <3 NATE says:
lmfao
[HUNTER] says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
CHANTEL LEANNA <3 NATE says:
i knoww
[HUNTER] says:
save this god damn convo lmao
CHANTEL LEANNA <3 NATE says:
LOL okay
[HUNTER] says:
lol fuck thats funny